Breaking Bad Habits

 I've been on a roller coaster of a ride concerning my weight. I have this little voice in my head that tells me what to do and most of the time it's a horrible voice that makes me eat eat eat. I eat when I'm stressed. I eat when I'm mad. I eat when I'm bored. I eat when I'm happy. I eat when I have a lot of work ahead of me and I feel sorry for myself. I also eat when I'm hungry too of course. Mostly it's bad stuff I eat when that voice is talking!

So it's time to stop. Time to create good habits and begin again with Weight Watchers, journaling and increasing my exercise. 

Journaling food is a great way to hold oneself accountable. It is right there on paper with in black and white. What I need help with is being hungry all the time for the first two weeks of cutting back. With so much stress in my job ( English teacher)  I mentally think I can't take on another "pain"..so I eat to keep the hunger pangs away. I feel setting weekly goals and holding myself accountable is the only way to do this. So this week my goal is to: 
#1 Journal EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth
#2 Stay on the program MOST days.
#3 No chips during the week unless they are baked and in a controlled portion. sigh. (I've given up pizza, hamburgers, french fries- but chips…not)

April is Kinda Sucking in the Consistency Dept.

Me on the right with my big thighs!

But who am I to give up. Back at it. I just spent the last two days reading and catching up on blogs and I'm so inspired. I go back to all these ladies and they just keep posting and motivating. Thank goodness for the blog world for people like me to read and re-read and keep going. I bought a bunch of healthy food and tomorrow will cook up some chicken to get me through the week. Dinners are the worst for me.

Weekly Goals:
Write down food and points.
Check in w/ WW
Weight myself ( ouch)
Walk minimum of 2 miles( more?) a day
Ride 60 miles.
Post 3 times.

April Goal: Consistancy

Lack of consistency is my problem. 

"It's not what we do occasionally that makes the difference~it's what we do consistently."

 I got this from somewhere and it spoke to me. If I don't do much else I'd like to learn to apply the habits I've learned consistently and without waiver. 

2010

The first photo was taken in 2010 when I finally decided to be appalled at myself. This vacation was at the beginning of my journey. The next photo was in 2012- and 50 pounds lighter. I'm still holding in that same area although I'm no where near where I want or need to be. Since 2011 when the weight stopped coming off I've started and stopped a thousand times. The only thing I've stayed consistent with is my exercise and my better eating habits which seems to be all it takes to maintain. So my goal for April is to simply be consistent in my journaling and point control. No excuses for this girl. 

Update

Nature's Cheese Puffs 

You can pretty much ignore the post before this. I didn't run. Well I did. My knee hurt and I stopped. I'll stick to biking and walking.

It's been so long since I've felt like being on here. Funny how that happens. School and trying to keep up with it consumes me. Simply zaps what little energy I have. I'm avoiding all the grading I have brought home this weekend because I simply am tired of it. Soon the BIG TEST will be over and maybe the students can enjoy English again.

Since the last publication: 

Parker had his first successful semester at the local junior college.
He is in the midst of being at a university now and LOVES it.
He is still with his girly friend.  All. The. Time.  He studies often and isn't involved in university life, but then again that's not all bad.
Our winter ski trip included her and another friend of theirs. We had a great time. I skied my best in years.
Hubby bought a CPA business. Right now it's hard for him. He thinks he likes it. Not sure. Ask after April 15th!
I'm still grading papers. I did get a student teacher which is hard. I don't like letting go. But she is doing a great job and very helpful. I'm grading the stuff that is crucial. And there is a lot. These kids write all the time. STAAR test ya know.
I'm riding my bike. Hubby not so much. Over spring break I rode three times which was every other day for a bit. It was awesome. That is so what I need. If I get caught up I'll continue to keep riding like that. No big rides for us until after April 15th.
I started WW. Stopped WW. Started WW. Stopped WW. Sigh.

So…nothing really fabulous.