Breaking Bad Habits

 I've been on a roller coaster of a ride concerning my weight. I have this little voice in my head that tells me what to do and most of the time it's a horrible voice that makes me eat eat eat. I eat when I'm stressed. I eat when I'm mad. I eat when I'm bored. I eat when I'm happy. I eat when I have a lot of work ahead of me and I feel sorry for myself. I also eat when I'm hungry too of course. Mostly it's bad stuff I eat when that voice is talking!

So it's time to stop. Time to create good habits and begin again with Weight Watchers, journaling and increasing my exercise. 

Journaling food is a great way to hold oneself accountable. It is right there on paper with in black and white. What I need help with is being hungry all the time for the first two weeks of cutting back. With so much stress in my job ( English teacher)  I mentally think I can't take on another "pain"..so I eat to keep the hunger pangs away. I feel setting weekly goals and holding myself accountable is the only way to do this. So this week my goal is to: 
#1 Journal EVERYTHING that goes into my mouth
#2 Stay on the program MOST days.
#3 No chips during the week unless they are baked and in a controlled portion. sigh. (I've given up pizza, hamburgers, french fries- but chips…not)

April Goal: Consistancy

Lack of consistency is my problem. 

"It's not what we do occasionally that makes the difference~it's what we do consistently."

 I got this from somewhere and it spoke to me. If I don't do much else I'd like to learn to apply the habits I've learned consistently and without waiver. 

2010

The first photo was taken in 2010 when I finally decided to be appalled at myself. This vacation was at the beginning of my journey. The next photo was in 2012- and 50 pounds lighter. I'm still holding in that same area although I'm no where near where I want or need to be. Since 2011 when the weight stopped coming off I've started and stopped a thousand times. The only thing I've stayed consistent with is my exercise and my better eating habits which seems to be all it takes to maintain. So my goal for April is to simply be consistent in my journaling and point control. No excuses for this girl.