Thursday, January 14, 2010

Back to Work

I'm going to work after being off for 8 days because of my surgery. Luckily I've been able to keep up with emails and grading from home. We are doing semester tests this week and so the kids are there just 1/2 days which is a nice transition for me. I'm so blessed to feel so good. Thank you!!!!! In return I promise to take better care of my body and not be such a glutton :) Love, me!!

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Post Surgery

My surgery seems to be a success!!!!!! As I awoke in the recovery room my first thought was : I feel no pain. I said, "It doesn't hurt anymore!!!" No more leg pain!! Just amazing to me. My back hurts of course. I will have back pain for a while, but that is to be expected. I do have a lot of pain meds to get me though this, but I'm going to assume that nothing will be as painful as what I have been going through since last Friday :) I have so much to be thankful for. I hope I can take this experience and use it to better my body and myself. Thank you God and the Universe for this experience!!

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


I'm having back surgery tomorrow.
 It's called a "Minimally Invasive Lumbar Tubular Microdiscectomy"
 In other words the doctor will make a small incision in my back, go in with a scope and camera and remove a bit of the spine, move my nerve out of the way, trim my "bulge"(the disc that is protruding), replace the nerve and hopefully that will do the trick.
My only fear is that I will still have pain.
Or that it won't work.
But I think it will be better then what I'm dealing with now.
For the last 5 days I haven't been able to walk, stand straight, or feel painless. It's been a nightmare.

  This is me right now. I look and feel like crap.  Things can only get better :) LOL


this is the old me

I love new beginnings.
I love change.
I love a balance between change and security.
I love positive more than negative.
It is so much easier to complain than be grateful and yet the gratitude is so much more productive and beautiful.

After not being able to walk because of my back yesterday, a vision of me in wheel chairs, canes, walkers invaded my head.
That was fast.

Ha.  I realize how much I take my health for granted.

Everyday lately I've been eating whatever I want and whenever I want with no regard to the outcome.  I've got to think differently. I've got to add some discipline into my life. I've got to quit rewarding myself with food.
Food is fuel and food is life, but it shouldn't consume my life.
Fresh. Start.

Get ready to see the "New Me".....emerge !! Photos to come in the future!

Friday, January 1, 2010


                                                            Molly~ January 1st, 2020

Here are my new resolutions for the New Year. 

The first set involves HEALTH
1. Make an extreme effort to walk every day. I will start with a walk to the mail box. Then a ten minute walk...then more as my back permits. As I get my back/ leg better I will use walking as my stress reliever outside connection. 
2. I want to use Yoga as a tool for strengthening my body. I will do a pose a day and work up from there. 
3. I will journal all my food every day. Good or Bad. 
4. I will take more of an active stance on my back/leg. I will try to get it fixed. Surgery or not, I've got to end the pain. 
5. Keep Moving. Keep Moving. Keep Moving. Keep Moving. 
6. I will loose weight. I have set a goal of 25 lbs to be reached by summer. I'll adjust as necessary. :) 

The second set involves my MIND
1. I want to read more books. A goal is 12 books this year. I'll start with the four I'm currently reading and not finished with!
2. I want to blog regularly. I will keep the weight loss blog and the other blog updated at least weekly. If I do more...then great.
3. I need a hobby. I am interested in photography. I need to pursue that. I'll look into classes. 
4. I will keep up with Bunco and force myself to be more social. I will talk more in groups.

Well that's all I've got for now. It's a big order to fill. It seems doable right now...but then I'll get a headache and make an excuse. Or my back will hurt and I'll be so down that I will not walk. I guess the important thing is to get back up and try again. :)